One more page to go! And then I will edit! And then I will take a bath and have another beer! And then I will do my case study! And then I will try not to fall into an anxiety trap about speech tomorrow because last time I did I had to walk out of the room in the middle of my speech and start again at the end of class! That has never happened to me! Exclamation points, what! I hate everything so much right now! If I yellwrite, it feels better!
The time has come to look at some positives before I shoot myself: Taylor. Joelle. My family. Harles Barkley, even when he is an ~independent dog~ and refuses to sit still long enough for me to cuddle. Giant glasses of ice water. That can be refilled forever by tap water (LUCKY.) John Green and his beautiful books. Sarah Dessen and her classic books that shaped my teen years. The fact that I am less dramatic and annoying than I was in my high school journal (I hope haaa.) The fact that I will be working at the Joe tomorrow! And seeing Mack for the first time in 8 months! 8! People that recognize that rape is not a word you should throw around lightly (I love everyone for that.) My jeepy. McDonald’s fruit and maple oatmeal. Reading glasses. Wonderful professors. Alcohol. ALCOHOL. Alcohol.
